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You’ll be seeing more of this guy soon. ;)

You’ll be seeing more of this guy soon. ;)

Just trying to blow off some steam. This picture is from a few days ago, I drew something else but it didnt turn out as well as I wanted so I trashed it. Heres a WIP instead. Still feel like shit,

Just trying to blow off some steam. This picture is from a few days ago, I drew something else but it didnt turn out as well as I wanted so I trashed it. Heres a WIP instead. Still feel like shit,

shensurei:

You’re adapting to a new life. You don’t yet feel comfortable enough with your new surroundings to fully embrace them, and for the time being you just poke and prod at them - testing. Your creativity, your drive, is stunted because everything feels so different and wrong. It’s not that you dont WANT to do something, you really, truly cannot bring yourself TO do something. Is that accurate?

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Yeah that sounds about right in my case. Everything just feels wrong, Im living in a different place, but this time its not a vacation. I gotta get use to this place, its better than back at New England in so many ways. Just need to give it some time.

askblogiskill said: I felt like this last summer. I felt bad about doing nothing. But right now, I don’t really feel it. It might kick in later on. It’ll go away soon as you get something to do. Anything really. Even cleaning my room made me feel somewhat useful.

Ill do what I can, but so far I’m limited to so much. Thanks for the advice.

askblogiskill said: I graduated from school a month ago and ever since I’ve been sitting at home playing video games. I don’t regret a thing.

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Perhaps its just my ambition to be useful that’s affected me. I’ve always wanted to feel productive, take and giveback in some form, its the way I’ve been raised. But then again, Im only 15, Im not an individual capable of handling himself entirely, I’m still affected more by my emotional responses than the environment around me, I cant make anything of what I have very well. It feels spoiling.

I’ve pretty much hit rock bottom at this point. I’ve never felt what depression is like physically, but Im pretty sure what Im going through now might be it. Its not family issues or people in general, its the fact that for a week straight I’ve been the most useless I’ve ever been for at least half a decade. Since Friday the 11th when I officially got off the plane to Austin I’ve done nothing useful. I would wake up at 1-3pm and go to sleep at 2-5am, just sitting at the computer, either gaming, drawing, listening to music, browsing, or chatting on the web. I havent physically talked to anyone but my parents or younger brother since I got here and Ive done pretty much nothing but eat what junk food’s left in the freezer. I’ve been “looking” around for Martial Arts schools to take place of my old one, but I’ve only done that as of recently. Im faced with the fact that I this is what I wanted when I was in school, but now I’m experiencing it first hand, and it hurts. Ive burned so little calories, theres been a day where I woke up at 1pm, ate a big breakfast, and didnt eat anything for another 12 hours. I want to get a job, but unfortunately the only options I can really be faced with is a job at Mcdonalds, which from personal experience, I no longer want to go through that kind of horror. I also dont know what I will do with the money, It’ll just sit in my bank account or before I blow it off on steam or other ridiculous things I dont need. I dont know. I just dont know. Im beginning to want school and its a waste of my summer. I have so much free time, and yet I cant do anything with it but go as far as to drawing pictures. Life doesnt suck, I just suck at life right now. Im not taking advantage of what I wanted most. I went through a whole 180 days of school for this, and Im treating it so poorly. 

I’ve pretty much hit rock bottom at this point. I’ve never felt what depression is like physically, but Im pretty sure what Im going through now might be it. Its not family issues or people in general, its the fact that for a week straight I’ve been the most useless I’ve ever been for at least half a decade. Since Friday the 11th when I officially got off the plane to Austin I’ve done nothing useful. I would wake up at 1-3pm and go to sleep at 2-5am, just sitting at the computer, either gaming, drawing, listening to music, browsing, or chatting on the web. I havent physically talked to anyone but my parents or younger brother since I got here and Ive done pretty much nothing but eat what junk food’s left in the freezer. I’ve been “looking” around for Martial Arts schools to take place of my old one, but I’ve only done that as of recently. Im faced with the fact that I this is what I wanted when I was in school, but now I’m experiencing it first hand, and it hurts. Ive burned so little calories, theres been a day where I woke up at 1pm, ate a big breakfast, and didnt eat anything for another 12 hours. I want to get a job, but unfortunately the only options I can really be faced with is a job at Mcdonalds, which from personal experience, I no longer want to go through that kind of horror. I also dont know what I will do with the money, It’ll just sit in my bank account or before I blow it off on steam or other ridiculous things I dont need. I dont know. I just dont know. Im beginning to want school and its a waste of my summer. I have so much free time, and yet I cant do anything with it but go as far as to drawing pictures. Life doesnt suck, I just suck at life right now. Im not taking advantage of what I wanted most. I went through a whole 180 days of school for this, and Im treating it so poorly. 

Here’s the full sized image of the avatar from ask-himeh.

Here’s the full sized image of the avatar from ask-himeh.

ask-himeh:

Th-Thank you, I look forward to answering any questions you have…

As celebration for  Ive decided to start an ask blog for my new most favorite character from Chronicles of Typhus. Come check it out!

I dont need this.

Filler content for upcoming work.

Parallel to Beta and Alpha there lies a separate universe named Delta, completely independent from KY’s interaction. Of this universe lies thousands of different dark creatures named deminions. These creatures vary greatly size and structure and usually live out a zombie like existence. During 52 AE, a small rip between Alpha and Delta was created that allowed several of these creatures to escape. Over time the rip would become larger, allowing bigger deminions to escape and cause destruction. Several humans including Himeh Yatsuma called Bounty Hunters were able to enter the rip and fight off against the deminions.

Parallel to Beta and Alpha there lies a separate universe named Delta, completely independent from KY’s interaction. Of this universe lies thousands of different dark creatures named deminions. These creatures vary greatly size and structure and usually live out a zombie like existence. During 52 AE, a small rip between Alpha and Delta was created that allowed several of these creatures to escape. Over time the rip would become larger, allowing bigger deminions to escape and cause destruction. Several humans including Himeh Yatsuma called Bounty Hunters were able to enter the rip and fight off against the deminions.

3 way art trade between me, SJT15, and PivotBlimp.

The 3 parts were drawn, colored, and background. They were each done by a different person! Props to them for being such awesome artists to work with!

I made a kaleidoscope of a drawing I did.

The gif was too large to upload.

I was bored, so I decided to challenge myself.
The challenge was to draw a picture using a Gamecube Controller. This is the final result. It took about an hour, but damn Im impressed. Its even harder than drawing with a mouse.
I used Xpadder to map the joystick to the cursor and the A button to click.

I was bored, so I decided to challenge myself.

The challenge was to draw a picture using a Gamecube Controller. This is the final result. It took about an hour, but damn Im impressed. Its even harder than drawing with a mouse.

I used Xpadder to map the joystick to the cursor and the A button to click.